well...

 i fucked up... im in oregon at bording school. i dont know when ill be home but i love you ALLLLLL soo much and u have no idea how much this kills me.

         ill be home not for a WHILE but yall comment me and think about me all the time! i love you!

<3 THE colleeny

HeeeeeeeeY YALL!!

            -- i know i aint updated i na while but xangas gettin kinda OLDDDD and i juss like it really to look at everybody elses and to leave comments THAT I NEVER GET BACK...

but hayyyyyy WHATEVER.

anywhoo---- i stole these from HEATHAAAA lol cuz i jus couldnt help myself! haha andi thought everybody here that ntie would appreciate em too soo.... lol i lvoe you heathaaaaa! and that was oneeeee CRAZYYY nite huh?! ha wow.

                           ....me sloaney ashley cotton and em.

and LASSSTTTT--- haha yea we all look pretty happy huh--- SLOANE IS GAY!

and i was piiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiisssseddd SON! :)

well i guess that'll do. lol i love yall and leave comments maybe this time! GAH LEE!

see ya later.  

<<333 ColleeNy.

EDIT ::    

r.i.p. justin.       -i love you so much and even though your not here to see everyday or to see drive by on ur way home or wherever... u will always be in my heart and no one will ever fill that place. we had just started hangin out again and it was so great. im missin you soo much already and i will never forget you. im sorry i didnt answer this mornin. i was sleepin... and if i could take it all back i would have never went to sleep. just sat there and waited for you to call. i am however one of the lucky ones who got to tell you bye and no one will ever know how greatful i am for that. i love you and u will always be with me...      <3 me  8-21-05  

i cant sleep man.     i got too much on my mind.

LET`S SLOW DANCE
& BE THE COUPLE
EVERYBODY WiSHES THEY COULD BE
LET`S WALK iN THE RAiN
& HOLD HANDS THE WHOLE TiME
LET`S LOOK AT THE STARS & KiSS ALL NiGHT
TAKE iT SLOW ; THEN SPEED iT UP
LET`S TAKE STUPiD PiCTURES
& LAUGH UNTiL WE CAN`T BREATH
LET`S BE FRiENDS
LET`S BE LOVERS
LET`S BE TOGETHER
YOU & ME

what day is it - and in what month - this clock never seemed so alive - I can't keep up - and I can't back down - I've been losing so much time - cause it's you and me and all of the people - with nothing to do - nothing to lose - and it's you and me and all of the people - and I don't know why - I can't keep my eyes off of you - all of the things that I want to say - just aren't coming out right - I'm tripping inwards - you got my head spinning - I don't know where to go from here - cause it's you and me and all of the people - with nothing to do - nothing to prove - and it's you and me and all of the people - and I don't know why - I can't keep my eyes off of you - there's something about you now - I can't quite figure out - everything she does is beautiful - everything she does is right - you and me and all of the people - with nothing to do - nothing to lose - and it's you and me and all of the people - and I don't know why - I can't keep my eyes off of you - you and me and all of the people - with nothing to do - nothing to prove - and it's you and me and all of the people - and I don't know why - I can't keep my eyes off of you - what day is it - and in what month - this clock never seemed so alive

      please come home now. its been long enough son!

<3 me

THIS UPDATE IS FOR LEIGHTON.

haha. okay well i dont really feel like an update rite now and emily is about to come pic me up...well actually yea im pretty sure she is honkin at me... HUH! rude rude girl. haha but ill edit later and im so not ready for school thursday.

and P.S. i been thinkin bout all the friends i been missin lately. i'v drifted away from liek soo many of my sooo good friends and it reallllly like hurts. lol i miss em so much and hopefully whne school starts itll all get better...? idk. well i love you and calllll me!

<3 LeeNy.                                          ithinkthiscouldbetheonetomakemehappyforalongtime.?

Too often we don`t realize what we have until it`s gone. Too often we wait too late to say  sorry, i was wrong. Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones we hold dearest to our hearts & we allow the foolish things to tear our lives apart. Far too many times we let unimportant things into our mind & then it`s usually too late to see what made us blind...                                    :'0(

           --- i dont even really know what to say rite now yall. i dont even feel like writtin but i needed to update.

        -last nite was NOT a good nite. actually!... life's not a very good life rite now like seriously... AT ALL. but i guess i'll just get over it. even when i still see him at parties and we still are friends and wana play like everything is the same and happy- yea i can do it... but i dont know for how long. i just feel like empty! damn it. and not like crushed omg! ...but empty cuz that spot is like a hole now i guess? if that makes sense...? but no im  not crushed and dying or w/e becuz i wasnt attatched... i dont get attatched very easily now- cuz all that does is get u hurt. but im glad this happened when it did before i GOT attatched... cuz now i see that i was gettin um.. pretty close. but o well as long as your hapy then im happy- cuz it does and always will make me smile to see you smile...!  istillloveyoubutthead.

         ---*        Just to see you smile
                        I’d do anything
                        That you wanted me to
                        And all is said and done
                        I’d never count the cost
                        It’s worth all that’s lost
                        Just to see you smile   ---*   

 <3 me

EDIT* ::

i don't know why i act the way i do
like i ain't got a single thing to lose
sometimes i'm my own worst enemy
i guess that's just the cowboy in me

i got a life that most would love to have
but sometimes i still wake up fightin' mad
at where this road i'm headin' down might lead
i guess that's just the cowboy in me

Chorus:
the urge to run
the restlessness
the heart of stone i sometimes get
the things i've done for foolish pride
the need that's never satisfied
the face that's in the mirror when i don't like what i see
i guess that's just the cowboy in me

repeat chorus 

 i know there's times you must have thought
there ain't a line you've drawn i haven't crossed
but you set your mind to see this love on through
i guess that's just the cowboy in you

we ride and never worry about the fall
i guess that's just the cowboy in us all